after months of not playing CC2, i’ve decided to come back to it once again.
the reason why i haven’t played it is because i was really demotivated after engaging in some disappointing events in my personal life. the game was also really repetitive, and i didn’t want to be burned out and drained mentally even more. but i feel like it would be a good idea to revisit a game i once loved, even at times when it frustrated me. the last time i played it was around mid-June, so i feel like it’s a good time for a fresh reboot.
if you’re curious what happened that demotivated me, i had a crush on a girl at school which i will nickname AB. she was a beautiful girl and was genuinely interested in talking to me, even when it got awkward sometimes we brushed it off. she was also a really good friend to me, offering support when nobody could. but i managed to turn the whole thing upside down on June 22 and July 10. i won’t say what i said or did on those days as i don’t feel like trauma dumping, but it was enough for me to get blocked. i tried rekindling the friendship in September, but that didn’t work, and i no longer had anyone for support. not even my friends had good advice. ever since that day, my depression has been awful, and just seeing her makes me really upset now.
i switched to Geometry Dash as a break from CC2 because i really just wanted a game that was simple and good for self-improvement. i’ve loved GD because it has taught me how to control my nerves even when times are difficult. at first, i was quite rubbish. then i beat all the main levels. then i beat my first medium demon, Mountain King. then i beat my first hard demon, Nine Circles. after beating a few hard demons, i decided that it was a good idea to jump to the extreme demon Bloodbath in November, a top 700 level at the time. i struggled for a few weeks trying to beat it, getting runs such as 41-100, 43%, 58%, 65%, and even fluking all of Etzer and Havok’s parts, getting 90%. i genuinely could’ve fluked bloodbath from 65% had i remembered the ending. i eventually beat it in December, ON MOUSE, after around 9000 attempts. it felt grueling to constantly die to Giron’s part (88-91) from 0%. but i finally had a reason to feel good about myself.
after beating the insane demon Supersonic 15 TIMES with various handicaps (60 fps, 1.3x speedhack, 3x in a row etc) and also rebeating Bloodbath twice, I decided to go for Cataclysm, beating it the SAME DAY i started it. i immediately got 69-100, then 35-100, and then 39% from 0. after getting 61%, i quickly got a run from 17-100, beating every part but the first wave. mind you, the first wave is genuinely the second worst part of a GD level i’ve ever superseded, behind Giron’s part in Bloodbath. literally 11 attempts after i got that run, i beat Cataclysm, fluking it from 61% in the process. it took me 850 MORE ATTEMPTS to rebeat it without coins, and that’s including runs i tried to do with handicaps.
having two extreme demon completions (technically five if you include rebeats), i feel like it’s time i retire from GD and come back to CC2. while i’m still a bit depressed, i’ve overcome a lot of it, enough to get back on CC2. with my newly acquired precision, consistency, nerve control, endurance, and ultimately motivation, it’s only right if i return for good. i don’t need to become a top GD player. because in life, you should strive for passion alongside achievements, not just achievements. a lot of the levels in GD suck, which is one reason why i’m not so passionate about the game. having over a thousand level completions and over 60 demons is enough for me. you shouldn’t challenge myself in a game you feel you’ve completed. so here’s a valuable lesson: be it GD, CC2, or any other game, if you wanna stop pushing yourself, that’s absolutely fine. always go for what you like the most, not what you feel pushed to achieve. others may say you’ll regret it, but this is your key to success. i’ll probably still play GD, but not as often.
with that, i expect to be active on this forum again, and starting today or tomorrow, you guys will see me on CC2 for the first time in months. looking forward to the new content.
