I dont know what it is
Whenever I am kind, I inspire others in my life to be a different person, even if it is for a short amount of time
whenever I think, I get lost and cannot escape what already is not able to be ran from.
whenever I get mad at someone I literally want to kill them inRL I literally have to restrain myself
when something makes me sad I literally collapse to my knees in immediate agony, losing complete control over myself
whenever I try and go to sleep at night something of unknown origin, unknown but unimaginably dangerous presence enters my mind, and it makes me scream, I sometimes pursue it out of my mind. I throw open the door and run after it as fast as I can, wanting to badly to run it down and kill it but I cannot catch it
Is this lack of sleep?
(even when I get sleep it changes nothing tbh)
Is this some weird, scary form of depression?
Is this BPD?
No one seems to know and neither do I.
Does this happen to any of you? Does anyone experience these things or am I alone?
Yes I am sure some of you wise people will tell me to get mental help, yes that is good that is wise but it does NOTHING to help me. It is all fringe to me
finally, someone who is like me
My adrenaline is also always on and it makes me feel like everywhere is 15 degrees. I am constantly shaking with it and its exhausting. If I was a car my nitro is always flowing through my engine, even when I really dont want it to its exhausting
hug sorry you go through similar or the same things :(
I wish I could help but I really don’t know anything that can help things like this
some pain in the mind cannot be described
honestly i dont need help :/ i deal with it on my own
Is how I usually go about it as well. I usually try to find help from things like going outside, or playing CC2 or something. Something I can try to enjoy
People don’t really understand. They can help you like feel better ABOUT yourself, but don’t really help with the main issue unfortunately :(
Holy #### no I don’t have to deal with this
Do things you enjoy?
if you need to play a game with me for this feeling to help go away idk if your friended on roblox DGV_Gamer767676 is my user
@Chloe you with the liking
ye I am on every now and then…you can go ahead and send me one ill accept later recently have been taking a break but ill be on every now and then
im doing a youtube video for a 2021 special i want you to be in it also ^^
What game CC2?
any game your comfortable with
Do you happen to play War Thunder or no?
Also yes CC2 would be a decent option but idk if I will be able to play today I might
Sorry im confused check WT or the request? also sorry but I cant log on rn im at school the wifi network is heavily restricted
I can accept at home tho :)
But if you mean look for you on war thunder I can.
I dont know which it is tho lol a little confused